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When Life Isn’t What You Signed Up For

in Grief, Spiritual Growth on 12/07/17

What do you do when life signs you up for cancer, death, loss of a job, abuse, or failure? How do you not only get through it but recover from it?

I use to hate the fact that my new life story included the death of my only sibling. I hated it so much that I wouldn’t speak a word about it and lived my life on the outside as if nothing changed. I didn’t want to relate to other families who were torn apart because of drugs, I didn’t want to hear other people’s stories about loss, and I definitely wasn’t going to share my feelings about which “stage” of grief I was on.

In reality, I was dying on the inside. I would stay up all night, sleep all day, and I did go through the phases of anger, loneliness, deep intense mourning, and sadness.

Years later when I was pregnant with Chase, I was standing in my bathroom when all of a sudden it hit me. My children will never know my brother. They will never know the person who I called my best friend. They will never see how my brother and I had the same odd sense of humor. They will never hug him, touch him, and hear his goofy laugh. They will never see that I am part of a family of four, not three. They will never know such a large portion of what makes their mother who she is. I broke down and sat on the floor of the bathroom crying and thinking that I don’t want this. I didn’t sign up for this.

Haven’t you felt this way too? You were dealt a hand and it exploded like a 52 card pick up and you just wanted to walk away from that deck and be handed a new one.

A friend once told me, “I know you didn’t sign up for this life, but it signed you up. So do the best with it that you can. Don’t let this be the last thing life signs you up for.” And she was right, I couldn’t let this end me, but I could let it shape me.

All I did was all I could do and that was to spend time in the presence of the Lord. There wasn’t a magical prayer, special worship song, or “moment” that changed me. It was many moments with my Lord that mended my heart, made it stronger, and bred a thankfulness for the new me.

Those moments with my Lord saved me. It saved me from spiritually dying and living my life in such a way.

If you choose to, you can find a million reasons to resent your life and be angry at God. Or, you can choose to find a million reasons to value your life enough to spend moments with God and allow Him into that dark space. He will turn that darkness into light and give you a thankful attitude.

In last weeks post, we talked about Joseph and his crazy journey. His life was not what he signed up for. He would never have chosen for his family to sell him into slavery or be wrongfully thrown into prison. However, Joseph didn’t allow what was happening in his life to hold him back, even at its worse. Instead, he allowed it to shape him for his future.

Grief may not be the reason you resent parts of your life, but the truth is we ALL go through seasons where we feel that way. We all look at others around us and wonder why it seems easier for them, or how their road to success was shorter and smoother than ours. Even though you didn’t ask for the hand you were dealt, you can’t let it consume you, but you can allow it to be a tool for learning and growth.

I want to encourage you today that if you find yourself wondering how you got to where you are, or how you are ever going to recover from a bad hand- please know that there is a God who is near those who are broken. He can heal your heart and only He can make something broken whole and stronger than before.

 

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  1. Donna Miller says

    December 7, 2017 at 9:55 pm

    Heather, I so love this! And I love “Don’t let this be the last thing life signed you up for.” This is very encouraging. I have a friend who is going through so much right now. I will refer her to your blog! xoxo Donna

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  2. Kate| A Hundred Affections says

    December 7, 2017 at 10:07 pm

    Thanks for sharing this. I have thought this MANY times in my life – life just not working out like it was ‘supposed’ to. In retrospect, I see God’s plan in getting to me where I am now, but those days were not easy. Thank you for sharing your experience (I’m very sorry for the loss of your brother 🙁 ) . It’s so true – somehow, God is able to heal our broken hearts and give us beauty for ashes. Thank you!

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  3. Jasmine Eclipse says

    December 8, 2017 at 2:53 am

    Hi Heather! I really loved reading this. Thank you so much for this inspiration today. I’ve been struggling lately, and I find my solace, comfort and peace when I do my daily bible studies. He truly is magnificent! I’ll add you to my prayer list this week! ❤️

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  4. Nicol Valentin says

    December 9, 2017 at 3:42 pm

    Beautiful story. God only gives us what we can handle, even if it’s hard for us to believe we can actually handle it!

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I stood in the prison with my fellow students and professor and his family. We sang the hymn - “I Have Decided To Follow Jesus.” It was the only time there I wept like a baby. Snot and all haha! •••••••
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There are a lot of different beliefs on healing, authority, and what role it plays in our life today. I want to encourage you to seek Jesus through His word and allow the Holy Spirit to guide you to His truth. 
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I remember coming home and sitting on my bed with my new Bible in my hand. I sat there thinking of everything I was told that night and how it reminded me of everything I was taught when I was a little girl. ••••
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••••
Immediately, and when I say immediately I truly mean with no hesitation a thought came into my mind. I heard, “Doesn’t a parent love their child so much that they would die for them? I love you so much more then that, that I would allow my child to die for YOU.”
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I knew the thought that had entered my mind was not from me. I knew it was God speaking directly to me. Since that day, I’ve followed Jesus, learning more about Him, and have dedicated my life to sharing about eternal life through Christ and all the goodness He is. ••••
The world will tell you religion is all about rules and what not to do. Can I personally tell you, that is not true. Following Jesus has given me freedom to truly live. I GET to do things because of Jesus. ••••
I get to love others because Jesus taught me how to love. 
I get to give to others because Jesus has given so much to me. 
I get to truly forgive because Jesus forgave me. 
I get to heal from the hurts life has thrown at me because Jesus has healed me. 
I get to live a life full of JOY because joy comes from Jesus! 
And sooo much more! ••••
My prayer for you is to passionately serve Jesus, have eternal life through Him, and to truly experience what is feels to live a life of freedom.
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I spent a semester in Israel during my college yea I spent a semester in Israel during my college years @seuniversity. It was two months after James and I got married so, our first few months as a married couple were spent walking the same streets of Jesus. To say it was a cool experience would be an understatement. •••••••
During my time in Israel there were two moments that took my breath away. One of those moments was being in the literally prison hole that Jesus stayed in the night before He died. •••••••
Historical sites are given a grading scale. An A site is “this is for sure the site that XYZ took place.” An B site is “XYZ took place here OR there” And a C site is “XYZ took place somewhere in this region.” •••••••
Jesus holding cell is an A site. •••••••
I stood in the prison with my fellow students and professor and his family. We sang the hymn - “I Have Decided To Follow Jesus.” It was the only time there I wept like a baby. Snot and all haha! •••••••
But man, to be where your savior was knowing what was to come and He chose to do it anyways. I’ve never felt more love in that moment then I have in my entire life. ••••••••
So today, my prayer is for you to feel that same love. To know Jesus died today for YOU and that He came back for YOU! You are His chosen child. •
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I don’t believe we will ever be in a time like t I don’t believe we will ever be in a time like this again; where we’re forced to stay home, have no schedule, and simply enjoy each other. •
•

My heart is with all those who are working in the medical field and all the families affected by COVID-19. We lost my uncle this morning to this horrible virus. I’ve been praying for my family and yours and will continue to do so. •
•

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I posted last night how I would be sharing with yo I posted last night how I would be sharing with you today what the beginning of 2020 held for my family which caused me to take a pause on writing. •
•

In January we lost my sweet mother-in-law very suddenly. It was a shock to us all and has taken us a bit to wrap our minds around. •
•

In addition to the loss of my mother-in-law, we’ve been navigating some health struggles. Now, with everything going on in our world, I can say it’s def been a year so far. •
•

But, God is good. If it’s not good- then it doesn’t come from God. The enemy is very real but nothing to fear because our God is bigger. •
•

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•
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Hi, friend. I know it’s been awhile and I have Hi, friend. 
I know it’s been awhile and I have a post going up tomorrow that explains what the beginning of 2020 has held for myself and my family. 
But, I wanted to get one here tonight to share something that has been on my heart. 
You cannot turn on the TV or pick up your phone without the word “COVID-19” blaring at you. While it’s wise to be informed, these are times many can become anxious, full of fear, and worry. 
Friend, this is our time. And what I mean by that, it’s the Church body’s time. It’s our time to rise up and praise the name of Jesus louder then any other name or word. 
Can I remind you that Jesus conquered every sickness and disease! 
Every. Single. One. 
When He died on that cross. 
And He rose again. 
There are a lot of different beliefs on healing, authority, and what role it plays in our life today. I want to encourage you to seek Jesus through His word and allow the Holy Spirit to guide you to His truth. 
When you find yourself reading this, do me a favor and pause. Look up Psalm 91. Read it, listen to it on repeat on the Bible app, and dwell in the presence of God. 
And then, wake up tomorrow knowing you are a child of the most high King- who rescues you from every attack of the enemy, who protects you from deadly diseases, who is covering you with His feathers and providing you shelter. 
I love you, friend. I’m praying for you.
It's 2020 and with a New Year comes a new FREEBIE! It's 2020 and with a New Year comes a new FREEBIE!
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•
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•
•
I've spent the past few months writing on 9 simple truths to knowing who you are in Christ. •
•
•
If you’ve been a follower of Jesus for some time, my hope is this book will be a reminder of God’s truth on who He says you are in His eyes. •
•
•
If you're new in your relationship with Christ or are still trying to figure it out and need a little more guidance on finding out who you’re  created to be, this book will be perfect for you. •
•
•
I pray this mini e-book will be an encouragement to your heart and for it to be a tool you use while you share the truths of Jesus with those around you. •
•
•
If you’re already subscribed, check your inbox!
•
•
•
If you're not a subscriber, click the LINK IN BIO and enter your email address.
Everyone is sharing their top 9 photos from 2019 b Everyone is sharing their top 9 photos from 2019 but I’m going to share my number one photo for this year. This photo represents an answer to prayer in my life and reminds me of the love and faithfulness of my Savior. •
•
•

My family and I just got back from spending a week in South Carolina for Christmas with my parents. •
•
•

Today was a day full of unpacking, cleaning, grocery shopping, and getting back into our normal routine. •
•
•

But, this morning while everyone slept I spent time praying and drinking some coffee. I have so many ideas, goals, and big dreams for my blog and this ministry. •
•
•

I thought about my reader who has used my blog posts to build a women’s ministry curriculum for her neighboring village in western part of Kenya. •
•
•

I thought about my reader in Papua New Guinea who is new in her faith walk and a simple google search looking for more of God’s word led her to my site. •
•
•

I thought about my reader who leads her local church with her husband here is the USA and was looking for a fellow female Christian to connect with and have a space to talk about things she can’t with those around her. •
•
•

I thought about my reader who was diagnosed with a life altering illness and found my site while searching for scripture on healing. •
•
•

I thought about you. The one who has visited and read time and time again. Who has listened while I shared from the deep parts of my heart on the struggles, the wins, the rejections, and the answered prayers of my life. Who has sent encouraging messages, shared feelings, and prayers. Who has in turn opened up to me and shared from the depths of their heart. •
•
•

As you know, I refer to my readers as ‘friend’ and that’s because a friend shows up, listens, encourages, shares, and prays. So, thank you. Thank you for being a friend. 
I’m looking forward to this new year with you as I share more of what God continues to lay on my heart. I’ll continue to look forward to hear from you as we do this journey of life together. •
•
•

Love you friend.
Hi, friend. • • • I’ve been taking things Hi, friend. •
•
•
I’ve been taking things slow over here to enjoy as much of this baby season as humanly possible. Getting to hold and kiss Colton everyday, all day long is a huge blessing I don’t want to take for granted. •
•
•
Because of that, my writing and speaking have been moving slower. I’ve had moments where I’ve shared with James the tug and pull I feel everyday, each week. There’s so many things I want to be doing, creating, sharing but I have to pick and choose right now. •
•
•
Tonight, I was feeding Colton before putting him to bed. When he was done with his bottle I sat it down but kept holding him while finishing a tv show. I heard him cooing and I look down and this precious face was staring up at me with the sweetest smile. •
•
•
Pure joy and love on his face. •
•
•
Friend, here’s your friendly reminder to keep on praying and believing that God has already won the battle, flattened the mountain, and straightened your path. •
•
•
After 2 and 1/2 years of barrenness and praying for this beautiful baby, my Heavenly Father so lovingly answered my prayer with the sweetest boy. •
•
•
I feel closer to Jesus because I pressed into Him during my waiting season and I want the same for you. •
•
•
Press in. •
•
•
And when your prayer is answered: enjoy. every. part. of. it. •
•
•
Even if that means other things need to move slower. •
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•
Love you, friend. ❤️
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