In June of 2018, I shared how James and I had been trying for two years for another child. We weren’t conceiving and there were no answers to why.
It was a season that I kept close to home. James and I didn’t share we were trying for the majority of the time and at first, it was because we wanted it to be a surprise for our family. After a while of it not happening, I didn’t share out of fear.
Fear of being labeled as infertile.
Fear of being forced to face the reality of the situation.
Fear of complaining about my wait time in case another woman in the room waited longer.
Fear made it easy to ignore. Fear stifled my faith. Fear kept my prayers silent. Fear kept God out of the situation. And fear kept my heart from searching scripture and relying on Christ as my strength.
After some time, I couldn’t stifle it any longer. I knew I needed to open up.
I shared with the women in my Life Group from my church how James and I were trying and through tears explained there was no reason for why it was taking so long. There was another woman in the group who shared the same sentiment. While our journeys looked different and had different bumps, curves, and turns- our desire was the same.
Jesus worked on my heart and rid the fear. I knew how I was feeling wasn’t honoring God and how I was dealing with it was not making it possible to give Him the glory He deserves. So, I continued to share and I shared it with you.
I was so joyful to share when James and I became pregnant. I had no clue a few short months after initially sharing our waiting season that just around the corner was the miracle.
I wanted you with me during my waiting season so when the time came for the miracle, you would see the power of prayer and how God still moves in our lives today. I wanted to shine the light on Christ because I knew He was going to give us a child.
I wanted every person in my life to be prepared to see a miracle that I was certain would occur and if one person’s faith was strengthened and drew closer to God, then it was worth it to be a little uncomfortable while being transparent.
One month ago I gave birth to my sweet son, Colton. When I was pushing, I remember thanking Christ in my heart for this child I was about to hold. Thanking Him for giving me another son to love, another son to kiss and hold, another son to pray over, and another son who will grow up only knowing Jesus.
When Colton was laid on my chest one of the first things out of my mouth was, “Jesus loves you.” I wanted Colton to know that he was prayed for, wanted, desired and loved more than he could ever imagine and the only way my mind knew how to tell Colton that was to tell him how his Savior loves him.
The evening of Colton’s birth I was holding him and all I could do was stare at his face and thank my God. My heart was full of joy and awe of my new son but also for a heavenly Father who loves me, heard my prayers, and answered them. I prayed that whenever I look at my son’s face it would always be a reminder of the good works of Jesus.
It’s important not to forget the good works of Christ in your life. Remember how He saved you, healed you, and brought you out of the darkness and into the light.
Remember when He sustained you, answered your prayers, and provided a way out of your valley.
Remember the strength He gave you when you walked an unfair path.
Remember the encouragement He brought through scripture and people in your life.
Remember the season of difficulty in your marriage and how He not only brought you and your spouse through it but strengthen you both.
Remember the job He provided.
Remember who you used to be before Christ and how He made you into a new creation.
Remember with a thankful heart of everything your God did for you, no matter how big or small they may seem, remember them.
Because if you’re not careful, you may find yourself complaining about things you once prayed for.
You complain about the long hours at your new job and forget the months or years you spent praying for a new one.
You complain about your spouse and their shortcomings while not acknowledging your own and forgetting the years you prayed to one day be married.
You complain about an illness and forget how God heals ALL sickness and disease (Psalm 103:3).
You complain about the heaviness of parenting, the exhaustion, and lack of sleep while forgetting the times you prayed for God to give you a child with tears streaming down your face.
You forget with everything new there is a period of uncomfortableness and stretching.
You forget the miracle and you develop a heart of ungratefulness.
Friend, you need to have grateful-joy filled hearts. Gratitude for the blessing Christ entrusted you with. Gratitude that He heard your prayers and answered them. Gratitude for the uncomfortableness of this new season because they will stretch you and your faith.
Show God you’re a good steward of His blessings and miracles so He can entrust you with more.
Psalm 77:11 says, “I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.”
David praised God with a thankful heart of the things God did. David prayed he would never forget the things his Lord has done for him. He chose to remember how God saved His children from slavery, carried them through the wilderness, and brought them to the promise land.
The Hebrew word for “I will remember” is אֶזְכּ֥וֹר (ez·kō·wr’) which means to mark or remember. There’s also an additional meaning of “I will celebrate.”
David was celebrating the works of God while he remembered them.
Celebrating and remembering the works of God is a powerful way to rid doubt and unbelief, especially when you’re dealing with difficulties or facing a valley.
Share with others you trust so you can encourage one another and celebrate together. My friend, who I mentioned earlier that was on the same journey as me- we delivered our miracle babies one week apart and we get to celebrate together.
So, while it’s easy to allow fear into your mind, to only focus on the hard and become ungrateful- you need to remember there are parts of your life you’re currently living that were once unanswered prayers and do so with a celebratory heart.
Psalm 103:1-5 says, “Let all that I am praise the Lord; with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name. Let all that I am praise the Lord; may I never forget the good things he does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!”